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Saturday, August 12, 2006

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 16:36:38 GMT

HI!

I'll no longer be writing here.

It's been six months since my first post; making this my last post will somehow close a chapter in my life. I might make some of my private posts public overtime.

I'm thinking of writing an anonymous blog; what a secret eh? See you next lifetime, thanks to whoever came here anyway.

warm bread soft butters,

nia

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 15:03:47 GMT

I woke up today with this feeling.
Better things are coming my way.
I know the sunshine has a meaning,
And nothing left can get in my way

When the rainy days are dying,
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying
Never let go gotta hold on

Get on up When you're down, baby,
Take a good look around.

sometimes it feels that life has no meaning,
But all things will be alright in the end.

Cos every time you leave me I'm sad
The moment you're returning I'm glad
So lets not go forgetting what we had
Cause it's bad
So damn bad, yeah

We're loving each day as if it's the last
Dancing all night and havin' a blast
Oh baby I want you right here next to me
We're loving each day as if it's our last
Dancing all night and havin' a laugh
Please baby I need you here

If I hurt your feelings
Then baby we're even
Cos I've been bereavin'
Since you said you're leaving
But now you're by my side
Lets not fight
Cos you're right

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 14:58:48 GMT

three is the magic number

long fingernails make scratching scratchies easy

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 12:23:55 GMT

finally sixteen. finally?

i have finally matured, people. i have retained from biting, cutting, anything my nails and now they have grown to a socially acceptable length!

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 10:45:19 GMT

if you think you deserve all that respect, brotha; then don't diss the miss.

treat others how you'd like to be treated- it's not magic. you teach others how to treat you by showing them an example.

if you love your self because you are loved then it will turn to disgust when all that love is gone. work from the inside- you've heard it all the time (:

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 11:01:34 GMT

ampir aja kartu ATM gw tertinggal dan hilang lagi.

herh heh, clumsy me

RIP my shorts

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 13:05:48 GMT

A goal I once used to have; to write when I am bored, and bored only. I gave up on this because I realised I can't write anything when I'm bored. So yes, If you really do read what I write you'll probably have an idea of how I am feeling and it usually is one extreme or the other.

My misfortune started at midnight, I had a great, long-term, passionate desire to sleep before 00:00 hours and so I crept my way to bed. My mom is sleeping in my room too and she isn't snoring, so she MUST be awake. Later I find that it's because my sister was talking loudly on the phone, despite her very effort to keep her voice down.

And so, to help myself and my mother to sleep I told my sister, very nicely as a matter of fact, that her voice was actually really loud and mama was getting pissed off.

As I came back to my room, I (kind of) rushed to the bed and ripped my shorts on the edge of the bed frame. It was my favourite blue shorts with playboy bunny patterns. Then, I couldn't sleep because I was having all these thoughts, so I went to the bathroom. My shorts got caught on the cupboard door that had been, ignorantly probably by me, left open. I took a picture of my shorts but I decided that it was probably too gory to publish and I'd want to forget about the incident and it would make me 'keep remembering it' and so I didn't.

My mom is happily snoring her way to dreamland and my sister seems sound as the lights were all of.

So that leaves me; laying on the sofa outside watching a replay of Oprah and in between the ads I was desperately, desperately trying to get a grasp of Sigmund Freud's thoughts.

character vs responsibility

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 13:11:57 GMT

Discontent and frustation- specifically talking about work though. Pernah ngalamin kan punya pembantu yang susah dibilangin, jarang ngikutin peraturan atau kerjanya maen2 mulu?

Gw mikirinya gini; bisa aja karakter dia tuh emang ga cocok untuk menjadi seseorang yang disuruh, mengerjakan pekerjaan orang lain or they don't pay attention to things that are not in place, remember where things are, etc.

Tapi, dengan keadaan keuangannya atau tingkat pelajarannya yang kurang... one has no choice!

Jadi solusinya? Meningkatkan sifat toleransi kita terhadap pembantu yang susah melakukan pekerjaan dengan benar, raise education/ make free schools, etc., atau si orang yang sedang kurang dlm keekonomian tsb. harus lebih gigih dalem mencari pekerjaan alternatif yang menghasilkan tapi cocok dengan talenta nya?

YAH. Pemikiran gw sampai segitu saja. Kalo ada yang mau komentar, please do- I don't care if I don't know you or subscribe to your xanga or not.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 13:22:02 GMT

As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you first
It was about eight years ago, don't act like you don't know
We were sittin' at home in your mama's livin' room
Cause, we couldn't be alone
See your mama knew I was something else, she knew how I felt
Back then we were in school; and that's your favourite excuse
Growin' up I was a fool; and I can't lie I'm missing you
Listen and don't trip
I think I need a bottle with a genie in it
Here's my wish list

First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby

FOOH, CAPEK BGT. 3 hari course di IMAGO ternyata seru juga. hohihehuha.
I'll have to catch up with all the bis-ites sometime this hols.

Good night my random web dwellers,

Friday, July 14, 2006

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 15:36:41 GMT

i'm feeling and a little